Long to go?

Another delusion. Someone looked very interested and then, once more, was not. This time harder for me to understand because I started having a hope that should have never come out. Rob has been too cruel to show me something I guess it was not. Once again I find myself sad and waiting, hopelessly depressed today, tonight. Will he find me? Will I find him? Will we find each other finally someday soon? Or are we doomed to stay apart forever in this life? I must say I do long for some love and affection so much now that I would have accepted it even for a while only... to remember the taste of a kiss and the warmth of a cuddle, but still I know that while would have not been enough anymore. Luke was even more cruel by saying he would have give me that "while" I wanted to then refuse it to me. I don't deserve that. I deserve my Twin Soul, True Love, affection, kisses and everything else. I deserve to have something too. I need to love, my twin soul, before I get too old. I need to find him. He needs me too.